I’ve relied on journaling for over 2 decades of my life and it’s something I use to help me process difficult times, as well as record memories, both good and bad. I write poetry and letters too. I’m sure you’re reading this and wondering what does this have to do with gaining courage to live authentically?
When you feel as though you don’t know yourself, it’s hard to feel like you can trust yourself. Me finding my trust in myself is why I am here writing to you now. I have writings that people need. The pressure has been building within me, to share my voice to a world in shreds. The injustice I witness as an American has set a fire to my course, to release the words that resound within me. I am more of an introvert than I was in my youth, and I find the best way for me to share my voice, is in my writings.
I am still learning how to live happily and authentically after:
-struggling with an identity crisis from a strict religious group (cult) I was part of in young adulthood (18-21)
-struggling with multiple physical injuries and illnesses from my teen years to now
-Finding out that I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and living with chronic pain issues, plus comorbidities
-relying on sex work for a period of time in my life when I was desperate
-growing up in an unstable environment
-missing out on a lot of my own culture for 20 years due to a sheltered life/ bubble
I know if I can make it through all I have, and still find my smile, then there’s hope for others to as well. I want to help you find your light again. I am not fully realized, but I am on my way there. I want to share my writings with you, to show you that you are not alone in your experience. I have had different hardships from you, and lived different traumas too, but I have never totally given up in pursuing the best I can out of life, and I am here to remind you that all is not lost!
